I found it hard to look in the mirror this morning

To see the face of the person that I’ve become

I feel so weak and helpless under these feelings

That maybe reality shows that the time has come

I’d give myself a fight if I were able

Maybe then I could make sense of it all

The bruises that I wear aren’t on the outside

But inside seems to be where I did fall

Daylight turns to darkness when I’m lonely

And that is all the time since you left me

I feel so foolish that I fell so easily

But maybe that fool is all that I can be

I look for inspiration through my teardrops

I lie awake just thinking of your face

I’d run away and hide if I were able

But I just can’t seem to find the perfect place

I listen to the things that people tell me

And know that I must follow what they say

But after the true happiness I felt when I was with you

It’s very hard to go the other way

My life feels empty, all the time I’m aching

Looking for release to fix the pain

It’s hard to satisfy my inner body

But maybe I can get through the driving rain

I can’t give to myself the things you gave me

And that is where I’m falling short again

I need to carry on, But I won’t let me

And that’s the contradiction in this game